This is going to be a text-heavy post! But I feel the need to explain and share :)

I haven't been sticking to my blog schedule for the past two weeks, because I've been feeling unmotivated and uninspired, and haven't been so well. But on Wednesday, even though (or in a way because) I was having a bad day, I got such an unexpected wave of inspiration. At times I get anxious in public places, when I see someone make a weird movement out of the corner of my eye, when a stranger has a strange look on their face, or looks at me a little too often. Or when I'm walking somewhere alone and don't feel safe. That was the kind of day I was having on Wednesday. And for some reason, I listened to a song I haven't listened to in a while, the song that inspired my Maturaarbeit (a paper/project you must complete in Switzerland to graduate from high school), a mini collection of dresses inspired by the ocean (especially the deep sea). The song is called "We Want War" by These New Puritans, and it's quite creepy but comforting to me, because it makes me feel strong.

I designed the dresses for my Maturaarbeit with the image of female sea-creature-warriors in mind, beautiful but deadly women who come out of the ocean to defend it. It's hard to explain the concept in only a few sentences. Two of the dresses had unnecessary fastenings, as I liked the idea of having to be helped into the clothes, the same way warriors and knights have to be helped into their armor, giving them a moment to transform into something else. Because that's what I want clothing to do to me, I want it to change how I feel.

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After finishing and handing in that project for school in January 2011, I needed some "space" from it after working on it for about 1.5 years, but I knew I wanted to come back to it at some point. I wanted to make pretty, cute, wearable, vintage-inspired things first! And my sewing/drafting skills improved so much during that time! But listening to that song again on Wendnesday I realized that, right now, I want to wear things that make me feel strong and protected.

And maybe it's because I got into art school and am excited about it and daydreaming about what I'll get to do there, or because I've been watching old project runway seasons, but I feel like trying something a bit more challenging. In the past I've made mostly dresses, but I feel like making a jacket or a coat.

Until I have something to show you, I'll keep posting DIY projects, outfits etc. (I have a couple DIY projects in the works, just need to get around to finishing and photographing them!). I'm feeling inspired to get back to my usual blogging schedule :)